Wednesday, February 04, 2009
I cried today, and I'm like so proud of it!
Today is yet another day of orientation planning process that had overshot the deadline and I am like rushing the skit, and WHAM! came in the editting of the timeline by Mr Kwek for orientation to start at 8.30am.
Of course, this was what we had anticipated long long ago, but we thought everything would be okay, then we just kinda left it at one side. But suddenly, we had to come up with plans to solve it at the last minute.
Of course, this wasn't such a bad attempt, considering the fact that we did come to a compromise with many things properly, with the programme timeline created properly.
But one thing really spoilt my mood, and that is that we cannot stay in school. It totally spoils the mood I tell you. That was why I was like emo-ing before the photoshoot for 31st. But I kinda told myself that I shall be sad together with the rest when they hear the news, no point being sad first.
Hahaz, but anyways, the photoshoot kinda ended in the rain and then more photos and finally GM, which ended quite late such that we cannot practice for the skit, so I kinda cancelled the practice for today...
Anyways, it was really sad after that when I did not have the mood to dance and just simply left the classroom to breathe some fresh air. But that was when Jamie and April saw me and asked me to follow them to talk.
Then I kinda felt so sad when I saw so many ppl crying. I also cried too, but at that point of time, it was only to a small extent. I just feel so damn stressed of it, that the skit needs to be completed by friday.
Anyways, just as the rest were like asking where we were gone to, I told myself that I have to save the mood instead of spoiling it, so I went back to dance and became hyperactive out of a sudden.
After that, we left the place again, and I saw so many others crying, and I sorta joined them. And that was when after much persuasion, I've decided to cancel the whole council skit.
I shared my many experiences with them, and we really had lots of talks and talks and crying and crying, and I found out that everyone has lost the mood for orientation, that they have gone over the limit and had no choice but break down.
After that, when they are sooooo hungry that they had to move off first, I stood up and told Chun Fui that orientation will be the best. And just as I told him that, it triggered something. Tears started GUSHING out non stop from my eyes.
I really have to thanks CF on this. He followed me to walk the whole of the drum block's fifth floor for 2 rounds and hearing me talk about how good orientation should be. And this is a summarised version of what I've told him.
We had 4 ad hocs already...
Investiture - I could sit on the banner...
Teacher's day - I learnt to do sai kang and feel so satisfied...
Post-LTC - I totally enjoyed it alot and that was the first time I put gel on my hair...
JIPA - I love GLORIA 4!
These are all the wonderful memories that I've had. And i just want the same for orientation. I want orientation to be the best, and council camp to create the best council ever, i.e. 32nd.
Then I talked about some things of council camp with him, telling him of what I've told Jamie on the one thing i am really scared of...
And one thing that happened so wierd is that this time it was April who is asking me if I am okay, asking me to relax and seeing me cry...
That was like totally opposite this time, I used to be the one who is always asking her to chill, to ask her not to cry, to tell her to smile, but just for this time, it was her who did it for me... Thanks April. =)
Yups, and we had dinner at MACs and I really thank Stevenn alot for his burger! I'll return him one one day! Yay!
And here I am, at home, typing this post, and this was what i typed to the cast of council skit, PROgrammes and CPR...
'Orientation is OUR event, and it is for the JC1s. To give them a memory so good, that in 10 years down the road, when people ask them what they enjoyed the most in NYJC, they say it is Orientation, just like the same way many of us loved orientation.'
I'll bring back the mood of orientation, I'll do it... Orientation is gonna be the best, no more, no less, no excuses... =)
I cried today, and i'm still so proud about it...
(R^3)CMI wrote some crap again... <3 11:12 PM
