Saturday, April 11, 2009
Went for enrolment service today as a guest (finally! Last year still had to collect SPA)
Caught up with some of my juniors, seniors like 'dao-ing' us liddat...
but anyways, were super high to bring up the mood there, and seriously, the planning this year was bad! They did not even have any rehearsals! And their colours are like... WTH... so many low ranking ppl...
So I kinda sat and crapped with Kah ho, Chong Junn, Yong Cheng and my long lost 'suanning' buddy Mr Ezra! Hahaz. His brother even joined us can... the potential staff sergeant... Hahaz!
But this year kinda sad... recruitment was only like 2 or 3? WTH lor...
Was very proud of benedict for passing his founder's test, but felt kinda bad that I helped him more than I helped my brother, cos my brother failed the test... T.T
The buffet lunch there was super nice! I ate 3 rounds and packet some back home... yum yum!
So went sleep for a super long time, did some SL stuff, then bwahahaha, went out with Clarence and Ming Wei to watch NYDC (Azizan, April, Pynx, RJ) dance!
At first it was quite sad cos it got cancelled, but it got back on again, and I've just got something to say... "You guys totally rock!"
So we went to arcade after that to watch them play play dance dance... (seriously, that was real long...)
And we went for dinner after that, in which I did not eat, cos I am kinda full from lunch and the small meal before leaving home, and also cos sudoku was so fun! =)
(I was lucky that they did not manage to probe further through the truth or dare game...)
So talked to RJ and Pynx on the trip home in MRT...
I really hope nothing bad happens... (they should know what I mean...)
Hahaz! =)
Somehow it just feels so weird...as if something is amissed...but one thing is definitely for sure...I've finally found out somemore reasons behind why things happen...It just feels so weird too...when I don't know whether I should be happy or not...when I see others suffering from the same problem as me...But I really wonder something...How come information always come to you right after you spend your time desperately searching for it?It's like you spend so much time searching for it, then just as you finally find it, it just kinda came so obviously in front of you...I feel empty...real empty...I feel like finding a 'new self'...To enjoy the days of my JC life, to make it as fufilling as it can be...But I am just so unsure of it...How long do I actually need before I can get my thought out of this...It's like I've failed for attempt number 4...and I really wonder whether this is what life is supposed to be like for me...perhaps I should just return to my original thought that I exist to make the life of others' better, cos mine is just a failure...but thinking of my parents just keeps me from thinking of this thought...I also wonder whether this is what it is to be nice...real nice...some people just do not understand me...it's not that hard actually, but some people just do not understand me...I'm not that hard to understand...It's just that you guys think too high of me...I am just a normal human like everyone else...I smile, cos I want others to smile, cos it makes me happy...It just does the same for me when people gets sad... I will get sad too...Well, if that's what things are meant to be...I shall just let it be...RJ
told me... "I shall be strong, emotionally and physically..."and that's exactly what I'm gonna do too...I suddenly had craving for toast...
(R^3)CMI wrote some crap again... <3 11:28 PM
