Friday, April 10, 2009
Went for lunch together with the elects and some of 31st at lau pat sah!
It was super fun talking to some of the elects while eating, and found out so many new things, and errrr, choir lingo I still don't understand! hahaz!
Anyways, eating time took super duper long...
then we headed on to Somerset there to go to cathay something... (I forgot the name, but it's the place some of the welco ppl went after JTS for pool!)
Then took super long to decide what to do...
but in the end went to kpool and played!
Though I only held the stick and hit the ball 4 times, I think it's okay larh, at least I get to laugh at some ppl, especially Yi Mei! Hahaz!
Anyways, it was really fun that I've gotten this chance to spend time with the elects and some of us 31st outings regulars! =)
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Somehow I don't feel sad or disappointed, I just feel free, free to continue with my life without being tied down...At least now that I've known the truth, I can stop deluding myself, trying to prove that I still have chances through everything I do, and get happy for things that happen right, and get so bloody emotional for everything that went wrong...The 'fate' that I thought we had is just a lie that I've made, and seriously, I was thinking why I'm so dumb not to listen to myself as I get those heartaches day by day...I guess that is what you call 'being naive'...I guess all the things that I've done for you are just foolish acts by me thinking that something good will someday come out of it...Your smiles make me happy, your disappointment and sadness makes my heartache, and that's perhaps the reason why I cannot afford to see you cry, but try to cheer you up at every occasion...I feel akward whenever I see you. I want to call out to you, but just couldn't bring my mouth to say it...every little actions you do just makes me feel as though they are special, though many others do better things than that...just looking at you will make me satisfied, talking to you is a plus point...Being jealous of others and all, I think I'm very dumb to do that...To think that I'm gonna succeed, is yet another naive thought...Everytime I think to the past, the signs that you've shown me, to think that that was when that everything started, just shows how dumb I can be, to be trapped in this thought forever, using it to tell myself that everything's gonna be all right...Since there is no point in me continuing in this, I feel that I have to wish you happiness...I guess I just have to let time bury things up...I shall stay strong...I shall stay strong...I shall stay strong...
(R^3)CMI wrote some crap again... <3 9:25 PM
